There are very few things that I can truly say I’ve set my mind to that I did not achieve.
Generally when I don’t accomplish something it’s because I didn’t really give it my all and/ or gave up when I got frustrated with my progress. Learning Spanish and yoga are two examples of things that I didn’t stay with long enough to get good at. They got hard so I quit. I’m not proud of that but it’s the truth. I’m not good at maintaining weight loss. I can lose the weight- I’ve done it several times- but I always gain it back. I just like food too much!
But there is one thing that I’ve always wished I could do that I just plain cannot do and that is write music. I have tried many many times. I have studied and understand music theory. My piano teacher and I worked at it for quite some time when I was in high school before it because apparent that the Good Lord did not choose to bless me in that area. That bothered me then and it still bothers me now. I don’t know what it would be like to be able to sit down and compose something that no one has ever heard before. It’s got to be an amazing sensation and it’s one that I will never know.
Don’t get me wrong- I don’t sit around the house weeping over this. I don’t even think about it every day. But there are days like today when I hear music I enjoy that I wonder what it was like to create it and hope that the people who did appreciate how lucky they are to have that kind of gift.